I have had some wonderful people surround me and my family throughout this time of need. Just knowing that my family was loved and taken care of has been such a relief for me.
But my experience with people and all of this (chemo, cancer, all that) has been one of the hardest things. Some of the people in my life that I thought would be there, weren’t. Some people have made me feel like I have inconvenienced their lives because food has to be prepared a certain way or fully cooked, they just don’t know how to respond. I’ve been told constantly that I am a picky eater. And people say they want to see me and hang out, but in reality it seems like they would rather be someplace else. Please don’t do that, just be honest and stay away 🙂 I don’t do fake and the last thing I would ever want is to inconvenience your life.
At the same time I’ve been overwhelmed by the number of people that have been there for us. People I haven’t know for long and some that I don’t even know have reached out, written letters, taken kids to class, provided meals and just been there to show us love and support.
I’m sharing all this so that if you or someone you know is going through this you’ll have some insight into how it effects not only you, but the people around you.
I have learned to cry without getting worked up. The tears just fall out but only when I am alone in the shower. I let the tears flow not just because I get hurt by people, but because some of the women I have met have had to get Mastectomy’s, or their treatment isn’t going well for them. In these moments I ask God why? Why are these women with young children continually being hit with the bad news.
I will never ask why me. I will look ahead and pray and seek the Lord for answers. I may get my feelings hurt in the process and cry where only He can see me, but I know I will be ok and I am reminded once again that God not only takes care of me but the women I meet who are faced with the same things. He will take care of you. Why don’t we always get healed? I can’t answer that for you. I have just made a choice to believe that God is good no matter what and He loves me.
So bring it on, because my strength comes from the Lord!
-Tamika
Amen again!When you are up for it,we will bring you some Indian food!
Oh sweet friend!! I have watch several family members deal with cancer over the last several years and to watch such a special friend deal with it too has hurt my heart so. I am so glad that you are strong-stronger than me I must admit. I have cried over the fact that I can't be close because I want to help out in every way possible but a 24 hour drive has kept me away. Please let me know if I can do anything from here. When we are there in December we want to shower you guys with love, hugs, laughter and even tears if they happen. I feel so helpless and like a terrible friend and I am so sorry for that. I love you!!! Please forgive me!
Amen sister! I have felt all those things and also have wondered about who has asked "why me?" Not that I have asked but was just curious because why not me? Stay strong!
I wish I could have been there even though its been a million years since I have seen u but believe I have prayed and continue praying for u.
Dear Mika, (I'm trying out pet names for you) I won't let anything happen to you, I'm going to fight for you in prayer and fast too … as some things only come out with prayer and fasting, how about this Friday? Are you up for prayer night? I'll cook… don't worry no sushi 😉 let me know when you're feeling up to my prayer and cooking. Love ya -Jen